Friday, June 13, 2014

This crazy life

I think it's crazy how all around me the world keeps spinning. I look through my Facebook friends and they are all getting married and starting families and then there is me. 

There is silly little me standing in a crowd of men and I fall in love with the one guy I can't have. But what I don't understand is how his lips make me melt in a way I have never melted before. All of the facts. All of the signs point to certain disaster but instead of building my walls higher they have all come down. 

His smile makes me dizzy and those lips God those lips. I just can't get enough. I want all of him I physically hurt to hold him. To kiss away his pain would heal my own damaged heart. 

His skin against my skin is like heaven threaded into the sheets of my bed. Ever since he kissed me oxygen just seems useless like if I could just kiss him forever I would never need to breath. Everything about him is perfect. I can't imagine why any one would ever put him down. I won't to tell him how perfect he is to show him what it's like to be loved. But he won't let me in. A broken relationship has built walls around his heart and it's been too soon. He wants to find himself. I just wish I could tell him how perfect he is right now. How amazing he is right now. 

I need him more then water. 

I'm hopelessly and completely in love.