Thursday, December 26, 2013

Mexicans in America

You know I have always agreed with the majority of Americans that they shouldn't have rights and we are letting too many over here. People are always complaining no one speaks english and our tax payers money are going to giving them benifits that we are selves don't get. 

Then my thoughts changed when some one took there theory back to the thoughts of our for fathers and the very principles of which our country was born. 

We are a melting pot of all religions and cultures. I doubt many could trace their family line back and be full blooded Native American because those are the only true Americans and they are getting the short end of the stick. You live in a country made of immigrants don't stop them now. 

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Don't

You've never walked a mile in my shoes 
You've never seen the cracks
Lining the walls of my heart 
Nor felt the pain of the many tears I've cried
You've  never read a single page of my story 
You've never heard a line to my life's song
Nor seen me at my worst 
So don't expect to understand my decisions
Don't expect to know how I'm feeling
Because those walls have long since been up 
I mean every word I say 
Every time I say I love you 
I mean every syllable
Every time my heart beats 
It's trying to make someone else happy 
But time and time again
I have gotten hurt
So when I see things 
And know they are not going to work out 
I'm not going to waste my time. 
I'm sorry if someone gets hurt along the way 
But that's life. 
We all get hurt and we all keep breathing
Because we have too. 
But before you make judgements 
Or believe you understand 
Just know you don't see the whole picture 
Just the chapter that your in. 

Christmas

My Christmas list: 

1. An acrylic art set 
2. 6 canvas 
3. 28 permanent markers
4. A coin purse made by disabled Chinese children. 
5. A Chinese leather bound journal
6. 2 dresses 
7. A necklace
8. A sweater 

And...an iPhone 5c blue!!!!!! 

But more then all that I got two days spent with wonderful family full of laughs and games and great food. I would trade all the presents in the world for days like those! 

Monday, December 23, 2013

A God we dont understand

All through history humanity has invented gods to worship. When they invent these gods its Gods.they can understand. Because how can 1 God be omnipresent or have created all of creation by them selves. So Greek mythology shows us many gods all singularily over one thing. Like the.God of the love and the.god of war. But the christain God the only God is a God that we in our carnal minds cannot and will never understand.

Joshua 3:10 speaks of a living God. Only a living God has the ability to interact and to.change.

People adapted the idea of one being because they can understand it. I began looking into the trinity and only barly to i grasp on to understanding it. But thats ok i can not understand a being like God. He knows ALL and i cany begin to grasp the science of it all. We shouldnt in our fear of the unknown try and bring God down to a level we can understand.

The bible is clear when it comes to the trinity as three seprete beings, for three seperte reasons, made of the same thing.

In John 14:26 Jesus says But the comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whome The Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrence what so ever I have said unto you.

John 14:28 He says I go unto my Father; for my Father is greater then I.

He specifically talks as though they are three different beings.

The easieast way i can describe the trinity is by H2O. Water, steam, and ice are all made of H2O but are very different things for different reasons.

He is three in one.

Confuseing I know but.i dont claim to be on the same intellectual level as the God who created the entire existance of everything.

Sunday, December 22, 2013

10 things you may or may not know about me.

1. I didnt grow up in church. My family started faithfully attending when i was in highschool.

2. I attended 4 different highschools and no i wasnt an army brat.

3. Im a pk through and through. Me and my dad used to sit up at thw dinning room table and have bibles spread across in all different versions.

4. When i was a kid i hated dressing up it was jeans and a tshirt through and through.

5. My mom didnt let me start shaving my legs till i was in 8th grade.

6. She didnt let me wear makeup till half way through my sophmore year.

7. A cat died in my bath tub.

8. I once wrote a letter to someone claiming they had won the award for the ugliest person in the world and we later became good friends because of it.

9. I played the alto saxaphone in junior high.

10. I did color guard in high school and dream of couching it one day.

Saturday, December 21, 2013

A man's role in the house

First off let me start by saying i am a firm believer in divorce is NOT an option. I think that marriage should be carfully concidered and once decided upon should not be broken. Things should be fixed not thrown away. (granit things do not count like abuse)

I think that men should be men. I once took a bible study course with my mom about how to treat a man. And in this study it decribed how our society has womenized men. I know women have fought it for years but we really were made different. Men are strong where women are emotional. Men think with their heads where women think with their hearts. Men are tough and women are loving. Its these differences they make us work so well together. Its also why i believe we shouldnt have a women president we think too much with our emotions.

I just think that a man should be head of the household. Not obsessive or controling but a leader. Some one who can lead his family spirtualy, emotionally, and finacially. Do i think the women should stay home and have no say in the descions in matters?? Absolutly not. I think that we balance each other. Behind every good man stood a better woman.

Just a thought for the day.

Thursday, December 19, 2013

Behind the scenes: depression

Depression is like a blanket of black swollowing you whole. It enters through your mouth like a poison and wraps itself around every organ beneath your ribs squeezing so hard you for get how to breath and your stomach lerches wishing to relieve the food thats not there because you cant eat.

Saddness fills you to the core. Inching like ice from your heart till it sits directly behind your eyes. You shiver from the cold radiating from the inside if your self.

You search the future for that happy moment that once made you happy but its bleak as a black and white movie. Depression has covered your thoughts like leaches determened to suck you dry of everything that makes you want to breath.

You close your eyes and try to breath but the darkness pounds down even harder. Swollowing you whole.

Finnally you give up. No more will to fight. No more will to keep searching for the happiness that you are sure no longer exsists. Its just darkness. Just darkness and cold and hoplessness.