Hello my love,
By the time you will have found me, I will be broken. I am broken. I lost all dreams for a future so true and fairytale like. I have ran hard away from any real "love" thats found its way into my heart. Though I know deep down you will hold on and never let go. I know that it will be hard and I wont make it any easier. I am difficult and wary of "forever." But I want to let my self love again. I want to fee connected in a way I could never be connected but to you. I want to let my walls down and let you into the deepest parts of my heart.
I can say I want these things, and I do, but I wouldn't know where to start. So when you find me. Take it slow. Sweep me off my feet. Knock down these walls and mend my broken heart. Show me I am capable of love again. We will have forever so I am begging you not to rush things. I know that you are human and that you are male and you are built to be physical. But that part of me is scarred beyond belief. Please, love me enough to wait. To not push me. I realize you were born for dominance. But take the time to know my heart before we take that step into intimacy. I am woman and I am fragile.
Try and be patient. For I will try and run and tell my self that this love can not be true. You will likely see me break down and cry because my mood swings are quite persistent. I might take a lot of work...I will take a lot of work. But I know you can handle it because you were made for me. You can see the diamond under neath. And when you knock down those walls you will experience a love so explosive its only seen when two soul mates connect. I will love you like a King, because I know that you will treat me like your Queen.
I apologize for the past that has wrecked my heart and built these walls brick by brick. But I do not regret it. My past has made me who I am today. This person that you will fall in love with. And I like the person that I am. No I am not perfect and there are many changes that I am working on every day. But you will complete me and help me to be the person I am meant to be. I have big dreams and I know you will be there every step of the way to hold my hand. Just as I will support you in every dream you have. We were made for each other. I realize that you might have made some decisions that you are not proud of too. But its ok I forgive you. I wouldn't have you any other way. You were fearfully and wonderfully made just for me. I believe that with all my heart. The heart that belongs to you. I know that I have not met you yet because God is still working on you and on me. Preparing us for the challenges that we will face together and the challenges that will be each other. But when we are both ready I know God will send you my way. And I could not be more excited to see out love story unravel.
Your Forever and Always
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