Some Poems From The Past

I think some of my poems from my past really show some of the deeper parts of my soul. Be forewarned some of them are rough and edgy. These were from when I first started writing. And while I don't claim to be fantastic at writing now some of then were pretty bad then.

The Eleven 

The started out eleven 

All together and living happily

 But then one day

Was born a tragedy 

A sixteen year old boy 

Part of the eleven 

Was in a fatel crash

And the first called to heaven 

The remaining ten now carried on 

Carried on with life 

The women getting husbands

The men getting wives 

Later on in life

The tears were shed again 

Another one gone

Another brother another friend 

Its time for another to go 

To  join the others 

In a beautiful place

Reuniting with parents and brothers

Tears will fall 

As she is leaving 

But we have to go on

Go on believing 

Believing we can be happy

No matter what happened

Believing its ok to be sad

When someones life ends

God will call them all home

Reuniting the final eleven 

That beautiful day 

That day in heaven 

That was a story I had written for my great aunts funeral. My grandma being out of 11 brothers and sisters. I will edit and add on as God calls them all home. 

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I will go threw each day 

With a smile on my face

My chin held high 

Never slowing my pace

My eyes will never leave 

This goal of mine

I will focus on that 

Only then will I be fine

This next one comes with a dark warning. It comes from a time in my life when writing was the best way to release the darkness. Sometimes it still is. The out come however is sometimes very cruel and dark like this one. 

Save Me 

As I watch the rain hit the window sill 

Memories come swirling in my head

 Salty water droplets seep into my mouth 

The dark empty house was quite 

But the screams inside my head were unbearable 

Being everything to everyone is not easy

There was a slow painful breaking inside 

There was nothing more I could do in this world

A cut just a little bit deeper, just a little but longer 

A little more pain for an enternity if peace 

The sharp metal pierced my skin

The dark, warm, sweet liguid seeps form the cut

The last of my life dropped to the floor 

The screaming in my head got quite 

I smiled, my life flashed before me 

The walls and the floor swirled and I fell 

I fell into the darkness forever more 

Why didn't you save me